позволявам си означава в английски

afford [afforded, affording, affords]▼(to incur, stand, or bear)
verb
[UK: ə.ˈfɔːd] [US: ə.ˈfɔːrd]

indulge [indulged, indulging, indulges]▼(to give way to (a habit or temptation), not to oppose or restrain)
verb
[UK: ɪn.ˈdʌldʒ] [US: ˌɪn.ˈdəldʒ]